love/hate

the game we're playing is life. love is a two way dream

this weekend has let me know that i have a love hate relationship with a lot of things. let's break it down:

1. New living arrangements. im a girl who despises changes, and will pretty much do anything to avoid it. at least, anything major. but, if i can get beyond the hate, i could learn to love it. it's from, an optimists point of view, a fresh start. after all is said in done, i think we can award 1 point to love.

2. SNOW. i dont care what anyone says. i dont care how pretty it is. how christmas-y and holiday-ish it is... to me? it's a death trap. snow=slippery roads=bad drivers=rachel paranoia, anxiety leading to lots of zanax. 1 major hate point.

4. family. my family is amazing, really. my parents, i couldn't ask for any better ones. they helped me move, back and forth and stayed around as long as they could this weekend to help me transition, and get situated. clean apt. number 1, organize apartment number 2, and then drive all the way back to bay city. and, my sister and her boyfriend too. without them, i would have been one angry and stressed girl. definite lovah points.

4. Electronics. in particular, cell phones. i pretty much hate the whole concept and monopoly of the wireless service because they exist to fuck you over. and it sucks, because i am a sucker for the technology. for communication. i want to be in the 21st century with the newest devices, well, just because i like it. dont judge! that being said, i guess i just have to deal with the endless amount of extra costs and stupid everythings. definite hate point.

5. there's one more additional love/hate relationships this weekend... but, for now, i am going to let the hate simmer and the love bloom and have that be that. for now.

The score? tied. but,im not a girl to hold grudges. and, i cannot stay mad at people... no matter how hard i want to. (in most cases) so, if i had to make a tie breaker, this gurl is a lova not a hater.