Done

we arise and shed our ignorance proclaiming acts of tolerance

and generosity and patience this is the human condition

s.t.o.p. this feeling. now now now. i have to stop before it's too late. because i don't to deal with the repercussions.  my fault, my fault, my fault.

s.t.o.p. caring. it will only make things worse.

my human condition is to care unconditionally.  no one warned me i need to take a step back before pouring my heart out to someone. it only takes a moment for them to turn their back on you. for them to patiently listen no more.

the moments make my heart beat faster for they were entirely unexpected. i'm done with the rollercoaster. i am done expecting the inevitable doom of falling faster and faster until i head up just as quickly. there is no more excitement. gone.

s.t.o.p being the friend willing to bend over backwards and offer up anything and everything to make things better. no more patience, no more generosity. because in the end, it doesnt end up being better for yourself. and you rarely see it in return.