inner circle

Cause I was built for you. Yes I was built to carry all your feelings.

people say that you need to find your complete self before you can be complete with someone else. if that's true, then why do you feel the need to constantly reach out to those who you love to be reassured you're taking the steps in the right direction?

i wish people could have more faith in one another. and their true intentions. i wish people could have more faith in themselves. and listen to their own feelings. before attempting to take on more than they can handle. before opening up their hearts when they're on unstable ground. and holding on to every word like it's gold. imaging a perfect world that you can create between the two of you.

until it comes crashing down and everything is in pieces floating around you, and you keep trying to grab them and make them fit. because you want to give them your secrets. your heart. 

how do you convince people that their secrets are safe with you. that it doesnt matter what has led them to where they are in their life at this moment. but that they can be vulnerable. and THAT. that vulnerability is what can make someone melt at your feet.

is it wrong to want,  to NEED to be that person that people immediately think to turn to when they are sad, or need something? why is it that knowing you can be there for someone else can give you such a sense of fulfillment? and then suddenly.... you wake up and you feel like you aren't that person anymore. 

Learning to be assertive. learning to maintain a healthy relationship. learning to put YOU first. to find you before you find happiness with someone else has got to be the hardest challenge a person is faced with. we are creatures whom need social interaction. it's incredibly easy to be swayed. to be encouraged. discouraged by others on the direction you want to head with almost any decision in your life. how to find that balance between confidence and your logical decisions and emotional decisions. the inner circle is small. but sweet. finding that sweet spot can be what makes you whole. and allow you hold the secrets of those you love.