i can feel it in my bones....
have you ever felt connected? just to someone in a way you cannot describe? it's almost eerie. but, comforting... when you talk to someone and they just KNOW. when you feel a certain way. it's like looking into a mirror and talking to yourself. but, the best part is, it ISNT yourself... yet, this person, reacts, and, responds... and gives you sympathy, gives you strength... and just says the right words... the way you would respond, if you were the listener.
but, even with the comfort of a sudden cloning, so it seems, the tears have been threatening. random bouts of crying spurts just happen. when i least expect them. i feel the need to be talking to someone at all times. or, at least. communicating, somehow. i feel unstable, in the sense that i just have that NEED. even if i have nothing particular to say, or, talk about... the voice. the calming. the... understanding or, even distraction of whatever it is i have in my life... and, lately.. you... just make it calm.
i want to look at myself and see my reflection. and see it smiling back at me. i want to FEEL it. deep down. i'm looking forward. and hoping for the right outcome.
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