don't take advantage of me because you know how much i care.
i wont let you hurt me. by needing me when you are at your lowest only to ignore me when you get back on your feet again.
yah. i hate it more than anything. it makes me feel like shit. because i hold my friends at a pretty fucking high pedestal. higher than i should probably. you of all people should know this. so maybe it is partially my fault. but when they blow me off... after needing me. depending me... and i create that relationship in my head, that need to be needed the everything. the lifeline.. it hurts. it hurts to go through the emotional rollercoaster with you. aching for you, wishing i could do anything to take your pain away, whilst knowing i do everything in my power to make it okay... wont ever be enough... and only to eventually be written off. as an afterthought. yeah. doesnt feel so hot.
im really sick of waiting around for people. im sick of being ignored. i didnt do anything to deserve this. even if you dont agree with my choices and certain decisions i make, it hurts to know you could just not think twice about me. and us. im so glad that people can get over their grudges and your everythings to try and reassure me that you still care.
thanks. glad i wasted my time.
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