as of late i have been feeling nostalgic. recently a lot of events in my life have inadvertently led me to reminisce about high school and sorta relive the past, but only this time around, i can, mold it the way i want it to be. in terms of where i want it to go. and hold on to things that i may have let go in the past. i have better intentions now, than i did then. or maybe i just know better. who knows. either way, i know when i have things in my life that matter, im not letting go.
my life is a whirlwind. of reality, dreams, and desires. its sometimes so... clustered i don't know where the line is drawn between each aspect. sometimes even i get confused of what direction im headed, and where i need to be, and what i should be thinking. most the time i say fuck the thinking part and just do. however, i can could give examples of how many times that may have turned out to be not the best of situations. live and learn... or, just live.
to complete the mess i have labeled as my life, i am definitely at a crossroads. pretty much when i thought things could not get any more crazy, they did. in the form of a huge fat diamond rock that lives on my left hand. don't get me wrong. im excited about the bling, and everything that goes along with it. but the reality of it definitely threw me for a while. im adjusting and accepting that less than a year from today i will no longer be living independently. it's definitely an adjustment that i have had to make in my head. we'll see how many tears i shed throught the planning process and leading up to everything that preludes the rest of my life.
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